I have been a Scientologist for thirty years and discovered it when I read my first book Dianetics: The Modern Science of Mental Health, at twenty-six years of age. At the time I was a self-conscious, frustrated introvert, who had such difficulty communicating that I couldn't even talk honestly to my new husband about things that really concerned our marriage, much less talk to anyone else. Because of this our marriage was foundering right near the beginning. I had so many inhibitions about communicating that I was just a mass of seething, unspoken frustration because I was too afraid to say what I really felt.

      Well, I have now been married for 34 years to my husband - and our marriage just keeps getting better and more harmonious every year. What is more, I feel free to say anything and everything to whomever, and I enjoy being a speaker at any function. If I read something which I feel is untrue or harmful in the media, I write to the newspaper to air my views without wasting a single thought on 'What will people think of me?'. Further, because my attention is no longer on myself, I can give my full attention to anyone I am speaking to and, in short, communication is now an effortless, enjoyable experience for me.

      But that is such a pitifully small statement of the gains I have received from receiving 'Scientology' auditing, and from what I have learnt while studying 'Scientology'. Learning what makes Man tick, how a person relates to other people and to the physical universe, about ethics and morals and how to improve unsatisfactory conditions in my life - real practical WISDOM, in other words - how learning these things changed my life - these I must add to my success story.

      One of the first lessons I learnt and the most valuable, perhaps, was the vital need to be HONEST. I learnt how dishonesty can mess up everything you do, every relationship you have, and sour and spoil every moment of your life and yet when I first discovered Scientology, I thought I was a good and honest person! I learnt to be honest with myself, as I gradually confronted and came to terms with all the stupid or wrong, or twisted or bad things I had done in my past. I was able to throw away all that garbage and start afresh. I discovered I wasn't such a bad person, and boy did the world look different! Life became fun and enjoyable.

      I learnt how to confront life situations I had previously shied away from. Before 'Scientology' I lived in a perpetual world of dissatisfaction and disinterest. No matter what I was doing, I didn't want to be doing it. I was unhappy. I wanted to be somewhere else, doing something else - then I went through the same cycle of frustrated dissatisfaction with the next thing I was doing. Now, it's different. No matter what I am doing - I enjoy it!

      Of course, I still have problems and bad things do happen to me, the same as everybody else. Ah! But the difference in me has made all the difference! I am now able to confront and face up to whatever happens and I mean WHATEVER happens. Through my greater understanding about life gained from 'Scientology' training, and through the personal gains I have achieved through coming to terms with things in my own past through 'Scientology' auditing, I am able to identify parts of the problem and deal with them satisfactorily. When my seventeen-year -old daughter was killed in a car crash, I was able to come to terms with it completely.

      On a deeper philosophical level, before 'Scientology' I was desperate and despairing about the deteriorating state of the world we live in and saw no future for a society which was taking more drugs, with escalating crime rates, worsening education and with all the cruel inhumanities done by one person to another. Now I understand so much more about why things are as they are on planet Earth, and who is behind it. I look in pride and wonder at what my group - the Scientologists - are doing about it through their various reform groups, and with the greatest awe, admiration and love to the man who made it all possible, L Ron Hubbard. And I know there is Hope for My people on My planet and for the future.

      I am very willing to communicate to anyone who wishes to contact me can do so through this web site.

      Please connect up and tell me what you need and want from me, which might assist you to understand 'Scientology' better, or how you may achieve similar gains to mine.