I had always been looking for ways to improve myself morally and spiritually. I had gotten into everything from Christianity to Magic but none seemed to work. They were nice ideas but as they were only belief systems, I saw no real change in my life. Then I came across Scientology and thought, oh, more good ideas. But I quickly came to understand that the main idea in Scientology is that it is for use. Use in improving your life and the lives of others. And I've been using Scientology to steadily improve my life since 1985 and using it to help others. And that makes me happy. And happiness is not cheap.